Such a Blessed of a blessed lady....

I'm sitting here at work, with a second to sort of think (which when you have an 18 month old you don't often get). I started by daydreaming about what I "hope" or feel more inclined to have the sex of this baby be...I guess I was actually day dreaming about what it would be like with either sex. From there I started thinking about what it is like to see your husband in your child. My friend Ellen and I go back and forth about if there is a different way to love your son and daughter and I absolutely think there is. I know that when we have a daughter, or if this particular babe is a girl I will have a new and different kind of love for her, but looking at my little boy and seeing in him the man I love and adore the most is nothing short of perfect. To watch the two of them play around, fix things, and be buddies is insane. This morning I got home from work only to walk in on Colin spooning Archer in our bed...it was close to one of the sweetest sights. The two of them are buddies and I am so excited for their future together (and for me to get a sweet bond with a little girl). Oh yes, tonight right before I had to leave for work Colin left with Archer to rent a movie. Minutes later I was driving down the road towards work when out of the corner of my eye I noticed a tall blond guy with an adorable baby on his shoulders...SWEET!!!

Now the attraction between Colin and Archer wasn't immediate....we have talked about this several times and I think Colin was at a pretty rough time in his life in general (trying to figure out what the heck he was going to do while working a job he didn't really like...and having a babe). When Archer got here I think Colin had some pretty strong thoughts on how attached he would feel from the start...and he was fairly disapointed. From an exhausting 32 labor...to a babe that wanted to nurse pretty much nonstop, there wasn't much fun in having Archer around. (I hope Colin doesn't mind me sharing this...). It didn't take long though, Colin says 4 months, until Colin started to see bits of how glorious being a dad was turning out to be! LONG STORY SHORT...today Archer was throwing a fit...a very, very, very long and very, very, very loud fit. I had a moment where I looked at Colin and thought...this must wear him out! I consider myself to be pretty darn patient and at this point I wanted to lock Archer in the garage and take a nap...but Colin hoisted that sweet little screaming angry boy up on his shoulders and said, "he needs a walk outside with his dada" and off the two of them went, Archer instantly putting his tears away. COLIN IS SUCH AN AMAZING MAN/HUSBAND/DAD.

I feel like this blog has been all over the place...it might have something to do with the fact that I am beyond exhausted...somehow 4 hours of sleep today after working overnight last night and now working tonight just wasn't enough. I am tired and debating a cup of coffee...and simply have tons on my mind. Mostly...I really love my life and I am really thankful for all of the blessings I have received. I live and get to be with the two most amazing men all of the time!

Ps. Colin leaves in about a week to go to Utah until the first weekend in May. Anyone who reads this and wants to spend a night/morning at my house anytime in April...PLEASE FEEL FREE! I rely so heavily on Colin for so many things and this next month is going to be a rude wake up call I'm afraid!!

Ok, I must end this madness...I have no idea what I am typing at this point...

-Love the sleep deprived mama

Swweettt Memories...

Today I was flipping through Archer's pictures, from birth until now....and started sobbing!!!!  I regret having to work, even though I know at the time it was sort of a must do thing...but looking back through the months (9 of them...what do I really have to complain about) that I was home I started to think about out quiet routine and our days filled with nothing other than snuggling, playing, or running errands together...BOY WE HAD IT GOOD!!!!  I think about our second babe only to realize the two of us will never have that special time...and I thank God for Archer and that chance we had to just be buddies all day everyday for nine months.  I also thank God that Colin is about to start a job and at least for the first six months I shouldn't have to work...and if I work after that it will just be PRN somewhere for my own sanity.  I miss lazy days of not a thing but playing.

In other non-depressing news.. haha, I kid, I really did learn an incredible amount working for this past almost year, but I suppose as my year is wrapping up and we are preparing for the move I am filled with excitement to once again be just mom for a bit.  If I could figure out how to land a really cool phone triage job that would be amazing, but if not...than if not!

OK, so the point of this post was to put up a picture of what baby #2 belly looks like at 14.5 weeks...I was waiting to get big early like most people often claim happens...I do think this time it is taking it's time.  Some days the belly seems bigger than others...but for the most part still looks like I either never lost the weight from Archer or I had a really good time partying in college....

Love from the almost UTAH Kimbles.

Ok Christy...

I totally agree with my friend Christy...how dare I stalk so many blogs but fail to ever update my own!!!

The move to Salt Lake is getting super close, but somehow it feels like it is never going to happen. I AM SO READY TO BE DONE WORKING!!! I love my job, I LOVE being a nurse, but before that I love being a mom, and I dont think Archer is selfish (or the next babe in line) to ask for a few years of me being mommy full-time, with a promise to return to nursing...eventually, and who knows perhaps sooner rather than later, but that's a grim outlook!

15 weeks preggo ALREADY. I totally feel guilty for this babe getting second born syndrome already!! I never really think about being pregnant unless I am at work (which means I actually have SOME time to think) or about to go to sleep or wake up and have to pee for the millionth time! I think I love this baby more at this point because I actually know and realize what it will be in the end, but I also spend my days playing/chasing around a very busy 18month old!!! The other night at work we borrowed the ultrasound machine from the ER and I got to watch the little bean open and close its hands and move around like CRAZY! Perhaps Colin and I are going to get what we asked for this time...or at least get a run for our money.

Archer has been sick the last couple of days, high fever. I'm pretty sure he has Roseola...blah, first time for baby boy to be sick, and sick he is!!! He has been getting lots and LOTS of mommy daddy love, and in fact spent the past two nights sleeping with mama and last night with dada...I'm not going to lie...Colin PUSHED me out the door to work (with tears in my eyes) because he was so excited to get the chance to snuggle with Archer all night (if mama is around mama generally wins).